For the first several months, I consistently lost two pounds per week, exactly as planned. Over the last month, I have hovered between 305 and 310 pounds with little change to my waistline. But, I have not stuck entirely with my plan. My calorie intake has been over plan some days but on plan over half of the time.
The real problem seems to be that my mind is not in the game anymore. I'm not wanting to think about what I am eating and don't want to take the time to count my calories. I find myself grabbing energy dense foods (high carbohydrate & high sugar). I know I shouldn't eat these foods but part of me just doesn't care. My inner voice is saying, "You don't need this. What are you doing?" but my silent driver continues with the action, ignoring my inner voice. I know that I shouldn't but I do it anyway. It feels as if I am watching someone else drive my body and actions. Are there two minds at odds here? Who the heck is in the drivers seat, ignoring my directions? I am not a back-seat driver. I want to be the captain of my ship, the navigator of my life.
