For the first several months, I consistently lost two pounds per week, exactly as planned. Over the last month, I have hovered between 305 and 310 pounds with little change to my waistline. But, I have not stuck entirely with my plan. My calorie intake has been over plan some days but on plan over half of the time.
The real problem seems to be that my mind is not in the game anymore. I'm not wanting to think about what I am eating and don't want to take the time to count my calories. I find myself grabbing energy dense foods (high carbohydrate & high sugar). I know I shouldn't eat these foods but part of me just doesn't care. My inner voice is saying, "You don't need this. What are you doing?" but my silent driver continues with the action, ignoring my inner voice. I know that I shouldn't but I do it anyway. It feels as if I am watching someone else drive my body and actions. Are there two minds at odds here? Who the heck is in the drivers seat, ignoring my directions? I am not a back-seat driver. I want to be the captain of my ship, the navigator of my life.
I just came across your blog and this is exactly what I do. Ugh! It is so frustrating and then I just stop all together.
ReplyDeleteI can SOOOO relate to this! My mind doesn't want to do it anymore. I don't want to count carbs, points, calories, exchanges, or any of that. I just want to be able to enjoy my food again. To enjoy my life! Dieting is NOT enjoyable. My body fights me every step of the way.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what type of diet or restriction I try, they all make me tired, dizzy, and starving -- low carb included. With my food sensitivities having my diet so narrow, and the food industry doing whatever they're doing to our food to make us crave more of it, I just can't restrict myself anymore than my health already has!
We're going to eventually die, and then what? What good will all of this struggle do for us then? I look at myself, and how far I've come since 2007, how much of that I've lost due to my corn sensitivity (can't eat sugar substitutes anymore) and I just want out. In my present state of mind, it's all just vanity.
I'm beginning to think that those who actually succeed at this "diet game" are those who only have about 50 pounds to lose or less. It seems that when you have less to lose, it's easier to reach goal and settle into maintenance before your body and mind figure out what's going on and begin to fight back.
I'm behind you 100 percent. This whole game is just NUTS!
Im there too!! Both of you are saying what I have been. I have diabetes and am sick and tired of counting everything that comes near me!! AGGH
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